Gastroparesis? HUH???!!!


You have had multiple test done and the doctors don’t see any need to keep you in the hospital because all your test are now negative, (by the way you have been in the hospital for weeks now.)  You have had multiple fevers and have already been diagnosed with diverticulitis and having perforation as well as a “windstock” like mass in ur intestines. The doctors have cut out the windstock and placed a stent. As a last resort your doctor decides to do one last test where you are made a sandwich with a contrast dye within it and your placed under this huge machine to see how fast you stomach can digest food, the test takes 3-4 hours. AND THERE YOU HAVE IT!……You finally have another diagnosis………Gastroparesis!

So what happens now?…….your finally diagnosed and understood all of the doctors instructions. You even have a prescription for a drug that you have read has CRAZY side effects, but you believe there  has to be another way.  Who wants to take medications that can disrupt your nervous system and make you appear to have Parkinson’s disease when you really don’t? This is madness. However, you don’t want to be afraid to eat food anymore because of the possibility of throwing up after each meal.

But before I go deeper, let’s have an understanding of what Gastroparesis really is. So gastroparesis is a condition by which the stomach no longer knows how to empty itself properly and efficiently after a meal. So many individuals experience nausea and vomiting, extreme stomach bloating and fullness after maybe 3-4 spoonfuls of food combined with a beverage. This condition is most likely seen in people with diabetes, but individuals like myself with no history of diabetes and never had an issue with blood sugar problems, don’t understand why they have to suffer like this when it comes to eating meals. We become Fearful everytime its time to eat a meal and we hope and pray we don’t throw up after a meal. Most studies of this condition say that it is the result of the vagus nerve being damaged. But how this occurs is still a mystery.

So you research and research and try things out until finally you have reached a food regimen that works for you. Until finally, 3 years later, you solved the mystery of how you can have a normal life even though you have been diagnosed with gastroparesis. So here is the food regimen that has worked for me: I began by letting go of red meats. Red meats typically takes the average human being 24-72 hours to digest out of your body. That’s horrible! This means that red meat is just sitting in your stomach for one whole day up to three whole days. What I did hold onto is white meat: white meat can take up to 8 hours to digest.  So I chose to keep the lesser of two evils. HA HA!!…..My next decision was to incorporate protein shakes into my food regimen. I would have one protein shake between breakfast and lunch and then another between lunch and dinner. I chose to use non-dairy forms of protein, I have five favorites: Garden of life; Organic raw protein, ”  Vega organic protein , Juice plus complete protein, and Tera organic pumpkin protein.

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These brands are my favorite sources of protein to get due to the fact they are plant-based. The Juice Plus Protein is soy based. Now you may be wondering why I chose the non-dairy route for protein, well……..studies have shown that regular milk is not just regular milk. The cows from which the milk comes from have large traces of mucus in them due to whatever sickness the cow may have at the time of getting the milk from it. This in turn has a negative affect on humans by causing inflammation to occur. So many may experience eczema or itching after consumption of dairy products (also my story).

So now you may be wondering what kind of milk do I drink. My favorite non-dairy products are:

  • oat milk,
  • quinoa milk,
  • hemp seed milk,
  • cashew milk,
  • flax milk,  
  • banana milk,
  • coconut milk 
  •  rice milk  
  • Unsweetened rice milk

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Anyway, raw foods such as uncooked fruits and vegetables or oatmeal are consumed early in the day and never at night. So for lunch, this is the best time to have raw carrots or an apple or broccoli. I also gave up coffee and made teas my go to. Coffee doesn’t help people like myself with digestion issues, it actually makes it worse by causing acid reflux.

So now you may be asking…. what about grains: pasta and rice, etc. Well the answer for that is simple. I never consume wheat at any cost. Wheat is what slows down the digestive process of people with gastroparesis/diverticulitis and causes stomach bloating. So the only answer is white pastries and rice of everything. I know that sounds horrible and it even sounds like your going to gain 80 pounds consuming white of everything, but remember, I said that this is what worked for me. After one year I went from 193 pounds to 158 pounds. So it did work for me.  For sandwiches, I would use white or potato bread. for pastas i would cook with pasta made out of rice but nothing with any form of wheat in it. The only time I would consume anything of that sort outside of my food regimen is when I’m out with friends, at a party or girls night at a friend’s house.

So here is a break down of my food regimen:

  • I start my morning with a full glass of water upon waking up and before a meal. Studies show that it wakes up the stomach.
  • No red meat, but strongly encourage all white meats: chicken, turkey, fish, etc.
  • Boiled eggs are to be consumed early in the morning. Choose scrambled egg whites over regular scrambled eggs. 
  • Gluten-free diet is best
  • No coffee. If you need some type of caffeine, then green tea is good as well as greens superfoods in the powdered form. This can be easily mixed with juice.  It has an all natural energy revitalizer in it. There is also Teecino dandelion coffee (it is not coffee and is caffeine free but contains natural herbs to give you the energy needed.) Available for purchase HERE!
  • Work out 3 days a week. On my lazy days when i don’t want to work out,  I go for walks or jump rope. Yoga is great to.
  • Protein shakes are your friend: use one of the proteins talked about above or one of your choice……. drink twice a day. Once in between breakfast and lunch and one between lunch and dinner. if I am lazy and don’t feel like blending fruits and vegetables, I will simply take one of my favorite milks and grab a scoop of protein and shake in my bottle.
  • Juicing is your friend, especially for raw fruits and vegetables that your body will take longer than normal to get rid of.
  • Raw fruits and vegetables are to be consumed early in the day (breakfast or lunch time) and never at night.
  • Teas are wonderful. They aid in helping the stomach digest foods. See teas as a form of a catalyst during digestion, they simply give a little push. my favorite teas are peppermint, ginger, chamomile,  cinnamon apple, and green tea. I consume one tea in the morning after breakfast and another at night before bed.
  • Avoid wheat. white rice is fine, and pasta made from rice is fine. white bread is fine. Potato bread is fine.
  • Avoid brown rice, (if you need to have it then 2x a month is ok.)
  • Beans, peas, pumpkin seeds, chia seeds are great. They actually have a great source of protein and omega that the body desperately needs for digestion. Available for purchase HERE!
  • Do not drink fluids with meals. they are to be consumed before or after a meal.
    Avoid soda
  • Oatmeal is to be eaten VERY early in the morning (6am-7am).
  • If you consume a granola bar, cereal, or a breakfast bar with any type of grains and granola in it, be mindful that it can drop your blood sugar within 3-5 hours. At this point you will experience signs of hypoglycemia (feeling weak and shaky). So Make SURE to always have a back up snack handy and ready to eat within that 3-5 hour window time frame.
  • If you are having a really bad episode of nausea and vomittng, but you also feel very weak, my recommendation is to lay on your left side with a bunch of pillows under your head. And within an hour you will literally feel the food in your stomach begin to move down your digestive tract and digest. Allowing you to feel a lot better.

But what about me?

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She wonders when it will be her turn. When will it be her turn to be in love without pain. She knows her friends and family were concerned, so she tried to confide in her friends, but regrets it because of the pity that she receives afterward. She lives with the consistent memory of the man that wounded her laughing at her to her face and calling her “fragile”……….so who does she have to run to? Her mom?……..Nope! her mom would worry. In so many ways she just wanted to be left alone at that time and disappear but she has a heart of gold. The only thing that kept her alive was her love for music (Gospel). Gospel music was the only reminder that she was not alone in what she is going through. It allowed her to be able to sleep at night in her bed alone. Or when she cried herself to sleep, it reminds her that the pain won’t last always. That she is entitled to feel her pain and that just because she was hurting that this does not mean that she was “fragile” it just means that she was slowly becoming stronger. It reminds her that she was not a bad person for the silly descions she has made, but that she was a woman that can have many chances at life as long as she finds it in her to fight back and stand tall. That she just needed to tell someone how badly her heart was broken, someone that didn’t make her feel bad for hurting.

What also upsets her was that she no longer believed in marriage. That she could never even imagine what it would be like for a man to actually want to spend the rest of his life with her AND put a ring on her finger. Or that a man would even embarrass himself in public for her to get on his knees  to propose to her. Now was she married before? YES! but that previous marriage was in a court and there was no ring involved………Anyway, her confidence was so broken again that she literally just lives from day to day hoping she can just get through the day. But she can’t let anyone know  how she feels because its not sexy for a woman to be weak or fragile especially around a man. So she is alone. No-one. And all she can do is wait for God to remember her somehow. Wait for God to perform a miracle. Any type of miracle as long as the pain goes away.





Broken hearts do heal

HAVING AN OUTLET DOES NOT MAKE HER A BAD PERSON or seeking public attention BUT SELF AWARE and a form of healing medicine

SHE IS WORTH IT, always has been and always will be.

Is God Really that mean?…….

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Does he have feelings like we do? Why does it always seem like he is punishing someone or leaving them?……. Believe it or not, this was HER thought process. Can she blame the church that she came from and left,  for the way that she began to think about God? YES!!!!…..did this past church have an influence on the way that she viewed God? YES!…But was it wise to place the blame on them? NO ……..Was it up to her to personally seek God for herself? YES……….Was she tired of going to that church and being in complete paralyzing fear only to have God remind her everyday that he simply just loved her for her? ……YES!!!!

As time progressed, she eventually did leave that church and began to work on herself. Her and some others walked away from that church and as they left and built each other up, they became the best of friends (that was the only good thing that came out of all of this, they even still talk to this very day, everyday)……But in the mist of it all, All she knew was that she loved God and that her heart dwelled in the sweet taste of worship. Worship became a place that she lived in where no one could hurt her or influence her. No one could tell her that she had to dress a certain way or look a certain way to be able to go to heaven. All she knew was that when she was in worship she was safe. But how can she fully worship a God that she was afraid of?

Leaving that church came with consequences tho. Rumors began to spread…..she was seen as a Jezebel or the woman that left the church because she was upset that she couldn’t marry the pastor. She was even called a “Peter” because she denied the “pastor” as her spiritual father. she was told that she was going to be cursed because she and her friends left and that God would take everything from her and she would become homeless. Then the final rumor was that God left her, he was no longer with me. These words hurt her so bad that she can remember crying for months, 9 months to be exact ……There would be times when she would be in front of her friends and couldn’t tell them what was going on but she would literally just have silent tears coming down her cheeks. They would ask her whats wrong and she just couldn’t speak. she was me.

I began to get angry and realized that I could no longer swim in a sea of tears and I had to find him for myself. I began to search my bible the word of god, and look for what I needed. I needed answers…..So I began with the rumor that hurt me the most: Rumor #1: “God has left her.”………..everyone knows the common verse “God will never leave you nor forsake you.” But i needed more than that. So i came across Psalms 73:23 “…yet i am always with you, you hold me by my right hand” …This verse meant the world to me because as time progressed I finally began to see God as dad  (i didn’t grow up with one, it was just me and my mom). In my prayers, instead of saying God, I would say…. “but dad”……but i began to do this without realizing that i was actually doing it for maybe 2 months. When I finally realized it, i was astounded!!!….. The fact that i was doing this was amazing because it meant that i was getting closer and closer to seeing god as less of a mean God and more as a father (Jeremiah 3:19 “Thou Shalt call me, MY FATHER, and shall not turn away from me.”)……I was one step closer to freedom from the words of others!!!!………..Anyway back to Psalms 73:23………that verse says you hold me by my right hand. It reminded me of the little girls that i use to see on the street as a kid and their dads would pick them up from school and hold their hand and I would be jealous because I always wanted a dad in my life to. Now I had one because i know that i know that he holds my right hand. So that rumor from that church was cancelled because not only was god with me but he ALSO holds my right hand.

So now you are probably asking……”ok so now that God is dad what happens now?”……………

My Truth

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She moved to a new state and is embraced by many of a particular church. These people become her closest friends, they love her and she learns the true meaning of mercy towards others no matter how much people may hurt her……but then things changed and she began to hear Sermons of:

”women are not to wear earrings, pants, or even walk around with their hair uncovered, women shouldn’t perm their hair, make-up is a sin,  and can and will take you to hell.”

“expect demons to attack you at night, this is normal and is part of the cup you must drink as a Christian .”

“Jesus took me to hell to show me those who didn’t make it and many were women”

“I woke up this morning with my body sore and knew that it was because God had scolded me in my sleep and i most likely deserved it, so when you guys feel sore in the morning it was God punishing you for something you did.”

“God will come to many and tell them to give up their jobs and stop going to school, there will even be some that must serve the man of God in order to enter into the destiny of their ministry”

”there are billions of demons, i was only able to get the names of a few but as you learn their names, take notes on how to defeat them and what to say exactly  to each demon because each demon requires something different.”

i began to think to myself “but since when has demons and looks become more important than learning about the love of god and his promises towards us?” But out of fear she remained in that church.

So as a result of everything she heard, she threw away all pants that she owned, cut her hair off and went natural, threw away all her earrings and make up and at this point began dressing like a nun. By this time she was so afraid of God, she no longer wanted to talk to him. Prayer was not an option anymore, why did she have to learn what exact prayer to say for each demon and their name…….she no longer wanted to pray to the one that could allow so much rules and misery. Others had warned her that this was an occult but she thought that an occult had a different meaning.

However, what she failed to understand is that its not what she wears as a Christian that determines if she makes it to heaven or not, its her actions toward others and her heart.

The only thing she knew for sure was that singing was the only thing that soothed her fearful heart……..When she encountered this fear that she had of God, she actually wandered off into a place of understanding as to why many people are atheist. Why many believed that it was impossible to be a christian, there seemed to be so many rules and no way to be able to be yourself in the mist of serving this scary god. She began to miss being herself and felt as though she was living in a box with no air. She was trapped. And She was now at the point where She wanted to leave but was told….. “if you leave the church you will be cursed.”……WHERE IS THE HOPE?!!!…… what exactly does she do here?……

Lesson/Encouragement: its not what you wear as a Christian that determines if you makes it to heaven or not, its your actions toward others and her heart.


The search for the one thing she lost………..confidence

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She was astounded by the fact that she could be married and the one man that she believed she could spend the rest of her life with had damaged her in more ways than anyone can ever imagine. Because of how things took place and the infidelity, she had convinced herself that she was no longer worthy of love, that no one would ever be able to love her or even want her after this, that she was no longer beautiful and that she would never be happy again. But then when it actually came out of his mouth towards her, she believed it and then behaved as so. He would even go as far as to tell her that just because she had a degree and a car doesn’t make her better than him. The divorce was long and crucial. But she survived that.

There was always this saying that said that “the most attractive thing is a woman’s confidence.”  But She lost her confidence, so what did she really have at this point. After the divorce she remained to herself and suffered heavy depression in addition to loosing her confidence. She wouldn’t talk to anyone, not even family and friends and just lived in  this dark world of isolation. She even contemplated suicide but begged god to help her.

One day her mother finally got ahold of her and said “baby I know that your hurting inside, and I’m hurting due to the fact that you are hurting, but u have to fight to live.” She realized that her mother was  right so she did the best she could day after day. Sometimes just surviving the day was an accomplishment for her. Slowly but surely she began to hang post-its around her house to remind her that she was beautiful, that she was worthy, that she was worth it, that she can and will love again, and that god will send someone to love her despite her flaws. Building herself back up became a long process but it was worth it.


Lesson/Encouragement:  Life happens, hurt and pain occurs, but sometimes if all u did was survive the day in your hardest moments then this is an accomplishment… doesn’t mean that you are a failure but an ongoing conquerer……So be encouraged.